This is Max!! I am using his picture to get attention. I wanted to talk about something, but I am not sure what. God has put it on my heart to share my life through this blog. My last post was about self sabotaging, so I didn’t want to post another story that is on the negative side. I want to talk about my health a little. Many of you in here know me personally, whether through the book world, friends, or even my church family. I am very vocal about my health. Many of you know I had COVID in November and my fibromyalgia and muscle spasms were exaggerated. That is what was attacked. I have also been getting edema in my legs pretty bad. I finally went to the doctor last week and as usual all my tests were normal. Friday I am going to the heart doctor. It’s scary to be in this position. To be in pain and have other strange things come up. I wanted whoever needed to hear this you are not alone. Whether you have health issues, mental health, anxiety, overweight, or whatever. Reach out anytime. I will guide you to the best of my ability. Maybe you just want someone to pray for you, a Bible verse, whatever. Please comment below or if you want to keep it private send me a DM. Life is tough we all have issues. Sometimes we just need someone to listen.

How many of you sabotage yourself?? I do it all the time. I tell myself I am going to blog today, schedule business posts for my groups. Vacuum my bedroom. Whatever it is that I need to do . Do I do it?? No!! What do I do instead? I play on my phone, read a book, play with the dog, turn on the television. Why do I do this to myself. It’s not lack of confidence, or maybe it is. It could be my negative thoughts. This week I am in an online vendor show for both of my businesses. I need to schedule the posts 6 a day. Easy right? What am I doing instead ? Playing some Candy Crush. Why do I do this to myself. I don’t do this in the morning. I get up and do my daily devotions, meditate, get ready for work no problem. Why do I do it with my business then?? It’s because I am afraid to fail!! I want to thrive in my business. When I put my best foot forward I do well. I know this but that stupid part of my brain that tells me otherwise always comes up. It’s so annoying. I just had to get this off my chest. Now I am going to put my phone down and get my act together so I can work my businesses. Thanks for letting me share! Tell me how you say at age yourself. It’s normal we all do it.

When I started Plexus in 2020 the world was shut down. It was easy to eat healthier and exercise as their was nothing else to do. I was furloughed and home all the time. I did very well in 2020 lost weight and felt good. I still had IBS-C, fibromyalgia, muscle spasms, and degenerative joint disorder, however I was able to get off most of my medicines and other supplements. Even after I was called back to work, I still did well. Then in 2021 I switched to a different company. Many of you know the story it didn’t work the same and I ended up gaining back some weight, and being in pain again. I went back to Plexus and swore I was going to do better. To start exercising again and eating right. The problem with this is it never happened. Now I weigh more than I did in 2020. I started exercising again. Tonight I went to Zumba, when I looked in that big mirror I couldn’t believe what I saw. Now I see why I can’t move well. I have to roll out of the car, and I had to go back on some of my medication. As I use this blog to empower others, I am empowering myself today. I am going to move forward, not look back and go back to eating right and exercising. I want to be healthy not only for me but for my family as well. I am here to tell you that I know life happens, but my goal is going to be to be more mindful. I don’t want to be the person laying in bed and my family waiting on me because I can’t move. I want to be able to travel and do things. With that being said tell me what you are doing to be healthier? What are some things you can do everyday that are easy? Your ideas can help someone else!!

IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO CHANGE OR TELL YOUR STORY!!!

I have a lot of things going through my mind all the time!! 💬🤔 that doesn’t mean that I am not productive or I don’t have imposter syndrome. It means I am always fighting the negative thoughts with new thoughts and ideas. How do I do this?? It is not easy. I found a group in clubhouse called the Empowerment Club, in this group there are many people. One day when I was speaking in the group I was telling them how I struggled with this. Jeanette R. Smith who is the moderator told me to close my eyes, take a breath and breath it out three times. When I was done she asked me what name came to me. I told her is was Lily. Now when I get those thoughts I say Lily be quiet, or no Lily you are wrong. It takes more than just telling yourself. I also have to work at it everyday. I can really sit here and go backwards at any moment, but I don’t want to do that. It takes me having faith in God. Praying throughout the day. I meditate as well. I also have positive things around me, whether photos on the wall or even things I wrote in my many white boards. This months theme is Dream Big on my calendar. I also have Psalms 27:14 Trust in the Lord have faith, do not despair, Trust in the Lord. This really resonated with me. The more faith I have the better my life becomes. Hi April 7 was a few days ago and I journal that I an grateful and blessed where I am today, as I reflected I realized so many thing happened to me on that date that were negative. I turned that day into a positive by releasing those negative things in my journal. Now they are out of my mind. We can change anything about our selves if we do the work. If you don’t like who you are or what you look like why? What can you do to change it. You can tell yourself everyday you are beautiful. You can tell yourself you will not have a bad attitude or be sad. The more you tell yourself the more you start to believe in yourself!! Stay in the present and make your life what you want it to be!!!