Today mothers all around the US are celebrating. I used to post on Facebook and other social medias on this day, however even though I have children and we celebrate in the home, there are many who suffer on this day. Due to this I chose to keep my profile on other things. There are many who lost their mom, their mom was not in their lives, they wanted to become a mom and infertility stopped them, they could have lost a baby, or even their child may have passed away. Please remember this day to be respectful to those who may not be celebrating today. Instead I will be praying for those who have lost. I am leaving this verse here and hope it comforts someone today. Psalms 48:14 For this God is our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to the end

This is Max!! I am using his picture to get attention. I wanted to talk about something, but I am not sure what. God has put it on my heart to share my life through this blog. My last post was about self sabotaging, so I didn’t want to post another story that is on the negative side. I want to talk about my health a little. Many of you in here know me personally, whether through the book world, friends, or even my church family. I am very vocal about my health. Many of you know I had COVID in November and my fibromyalgia and muscle spasms were exaggerated. That is what was attacked. I have also been getting edema in my legs pretty bad. I finally went to the doctor last week and as usual all my tests were normal. Friday I am going to the heart doctor. It’s scary to be in this position. To be in pain and have other strange things come up. I wanted whoever needed to hear this you are not alone. Whether you have health issues, mental health, anxiety, overweight, or whatever. Reach out anytime. I will guide you to the best of my ability. Maybe you just want someone to pray for you, a Bible verse, whatever. Please comment below or if you want to keep it private send me a DM. Life is tough we all have issues. Sometimes we just need someone to listen.

How many of you sabotage yourself?? I do it all the time. I tell myself I am going to blog today, schedule business posts for my groups. Vacuum my bedroom. Whatever it is that I need to do . Do I do it?? No!! What do I do instead? I play on my phone, read a book, play with the dog, turn on the television. Why do I do this to myself. It’s not lack of confidence, or maybe it is. It could be my negative thoughts. This week I am in an online vendor show for both of my businesses. I need to schedule the posts 6 a day. Easy right? What am I doing instead ? Playing some Candy Crush. Why do I do this to myself. I don’t do this in the morning. I get up and do my daily devotions, meditate, get ready for work no problem. Why do I do it with my business then?? It’s because I am afraid to fail!! I want to thrive in my business. When I put my best foot forward I do well. I know this but that stupid part of my brain that tells me otherwise always comes up. It’s so annoying. I just had to get this off my chest. Now I am going to put my phone down and get my act together so I can work my businesses. Thanks for letting me share! Tell me how you say at age yourself. It’s normal we all do it.

When I started Plexus in 2020 the world was shut down. It was easy to eat healthier and exercise as their was nothing else to do. I was furloughed and home all the time. I did very well in 2020 lost weight and felt good. I still had IBS-C, fibromyalgia, muscle spasms, and degenerative joint disorder, however I was able to get off most of my medicines and other supplements. Even after I was called back to work, I still did well. Then in 2021 I switched to a different company. Many of you know the story it didn’t work the same and I ended up gaining back some weight, and being in pain again. I went back to Plexus and swore I was going to do better. To start exercising again and eating right. The problem with this is it never happened. Now I weigh more than I did in 2020. I started exercising again. Tonight I went to Zumba, when I looked in that big mirror I couldn’t believe what I saw. Now I see why I can’t move well. I have to roll out of the car, and I had to go back on some of my medication. As I use this blog to empower others, I am empowering myself today. I am going to move forward, not look back and go back to eating right and exercising. I want to be healthy not only for me but for my family as well. I am here to tell you that I know life happens, but my goal is going to be to be more mindful. I don’t want to be the person laying in bed and my family waiting on me because I can’t move. I want to be able to travel and do things. With that being said tell me what you are doing to be healthier? What are some things you can do everyday that are easy? Your ideas can help someone else!!

IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO CHANGE OR TELL YOUR STORY!!!

I have a lot of things going through my mind all the time!! 💬🤔 that doesn’t mean that I am not productive or I don’t have imposter syndrome. It means I am always fighting the negative thoughts with new thoughts and ideas. How do I do this?? It is not easy. I found a group in clubhouse called the Empowerment Club, in this group there are many people. One day when I was speaking in the group I was telling them how I struggled with this. Jeanette R. Smith who is the moderator told me to close my eyes, take a breath and breath it out three times. When I was done she asked me what name came to me. I told her is was Lily. Now when I get those thoughts I say Lily be quiet, or no Lily you are wrong. It takes more than just telling yourself. I also have to work at it everyday. I can really sit here and go backwards at any moment, but I don’t want to do that. It takes me having faith in God. Praying throughout the day. I meditate as well. I also have positive things around me, whether photos on the wall or even things I wrote in my many white boards. This months theme is Dream Big on my calendar. I also have Psalms 27:14 Trust in the Lord have faith, do not despair, Trust in the Lord. This really resonated with me. The more faith I have the better my life becomes. Hi April 7 was a few days ago and I journal that I an grateful and blessed where I am today, as I reflected I realized so many thing happened to me on that date that were negative. I turned that day into a positive by releasing those negative things in my journal. Now they are out of my mind. We can change anything about our selves if we do the work. If you don’t like who you are or what you look like why? What can you do to change it. You can tell yourself everyday you are beautiful. You can tell yourself you will not have a bad attitude or be sad. The more you tell yourself the more you start to believe in yourself!! Stay in the present and make your life what you want it to be!!!

Grief is hard. It can hit you at any time or anyplace. It doesn’t always come from a death, it could be from a divorce, breakup, losing a job, loss of self esteem, and many other things.
Every person grieves differently. There is no wrong or right way to grieve. It goes through stages denial, anger, guilt, and hope are some of them.
In the Bible Matthew 5:4 says Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
God always provides us with love and hope, especially in our darkest times.

I have Raynaud Syndrome, for those that don’t know wha that is, I am going to describe a typical day for me. My fingers, and toes are always frozen, sometimes the tip of my ears, or nose, and most definitely my tongue will be freezing. Weirdest feeling in the world. The only way to describe a frozen tongue is to imagine you are licking an ice cream cone down the shore in the dead of summer. That feeling your tongue has, yes that the feeling, except it doesn’t go away as easily.

Now imagine your sitting there with fuzzy socks and gloves on, and you are all of a sudden so hot. You begin to sweat but you toes are now turning white so you have to keep you socks on. It’s almost like you have a fever. That’s my life.

I say this as a joke because if I don’t keep humor in my life I would probably be crying. I know eventually the hot flashes will go away but the Reynauds is here to stay. I just pray to God that it doesn’t get worse and it stays manageable.

Tell me about some of your hormone, or health issues that contradict each other. How do you deal with it??

Today I am reflecting on the fact i am alive. for some reason i am here! I could have died numerous times in my life, two bad car accidents, when my spine was leaking fluid, abusive relationship, but I am still here. i have a purpose and that is to empower others. to let them know there is more to life in this world. we have to take the time to find what is important to us, and how to use it.

I have my family and my church family, to guide me through. i also have a counselor. its ok to get help and ask for it. we all need help sometimes, and there are people out there willing to listen and to help if they are able.
the first step is admitting we are in a spot and don’t know how to get out. trust in God pray for His help and lean on someone who will help you. someone that will guide you in the right path.

Everyday can be a great day it all depends on your mindset. Mornings used to be hard I would not want to get out of bed, however now before I get out of bed I close my eyes and think about how grateful I am to be alive, and anything else I am grateful for. I then pray, do a devotion and meditate. I then go downstairs and spend time reading self help books, do my devotions, and journal. This starts my day everyday in a good way. This may not be the way for everyone but this is what works for me. Some days I even get on my stationary bike.
Another thing I do everyday now, which I used to think was a waste of time, is make my bed. It gives me the thought to be grateful before I go to bed that I have a bed to sleep in. It’s like unwrapping a present every night.
This all helps me to be true to myself. If you can’t be true to yourself how can you put your best foot forward??
Ponder on that today!!
Have a great day and feel free to leave a comment below

Some things in life are a surprise and some things are not. I promised i would be truthful in this and would talk about many things. One subject I have been quiet on was my relationship with my father. Now i feel I have to share. I did not have a relationship with my father for over ten years. The last time we went to lunch was after my husband died, it was the holidays. I met up with him and gave him his gift. The whole lunch he talked about my sisters stepson (at the time) and everyting he did with him, and did not acknowledge my children or my brothers children at all. The thing is I knew at that moment that I would not deal with this anymore. You see my father left my mom when I was nine and my brother was five.

I guess.I should thank him for being a father who wasn;t involved in my life. It taught me to work at a young age so I could buy what I needed, as money was tight in our house. I learned about disappointment at a young age and how to deal with it, by having many Sundays waiting for him to pick me up for vistation and he didn’t show up. I learned not to compare myself to others as I would go to his house on holidays where there were presents all under the tree and I got a flannel shirt. The most important thing I learned is, even though you can’t chose your family that doesn’t mean they are your people.

Yes there were times he was there for me like when I owned my restaurant and he came there for dinner a lot. He went with me to plan my husbands funeral. I can’t remember another time he was there though. I remember many times I would call him and ask for ten dollars to go to the movies, and he would tell me he pays child support.

My father passed away this year it did affect me. I thought maybe there was something I could have done to have a relationship with him, but then I remebered, I tried numerous times with no avail. I did go to the funeral and stood at the front. Said my goddbyes and greeted everyone who came through. I didn’t know most people but thats ok, that told me he knew many people. Many had beautiful things to say about him I said thank you. I put my difference aside so I could be that little girl who so desperatly wanted her daddy’s love.

I want you to know that I am not typing this to bash him. I am just sharing my thoughts tonight. It is a somber night as he is on my mind today. I had to forgive him so I can move past this time in my life and it was a great feeling to let go of this. I am moving forward with life and remembering all the things I am because of my experience. Even though at one point I looked for a “daddy” figure in my relationships, now I know I don’t need that.

Tonight i want to thank my dad as I am a strong opininated person, with a great work ethic, I am loyal, responsible, and my friends know I am good to have in their corner. I may not have gained all these qualities if I had a different life.